:)

For a pessimist, I'm an optimist ♥

#np: For a pessimist, I'm an optimist ~ Paramore

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you
So much faith
And then you just threw it away
You threw it away

sup people.

so someone *ehem* kinda commented on how I'm expressing myself on facebook.

Which made me "lose my image".

So I deactivated my Facebook account,

I don't know for how long,

but yeah.

the only way you can find me is through the phone or Twitter.

For the time being.

I'm just angry.

Don't pretend that everything's fine,

and that once you smile at me,

once you check up on me,

I won't be angry anymore.

I don't want to be nice.

Judge me.

Call me a b****.

All the times,

that I've said that I don't wanna be nice anymore.

This time,

I mean it.

xoxo

You're gone.

#np: Slipped Away ~ Avril Lavigne

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Sometimes, you're just too sad to cry,

too sad to function.

You just smile to say "I'm fine".

The whole day you'll be smiling,

but once you're alone,

things that you've been avoiding in your head,

come and haunt you.

the things I do for the people I care about,

it brings absolutely no benefit to me.

Well, maybe I'm hoping you won't walk away from me,

like many people do.

But I do it for you.

I don't know, maybe you're just like super stubborn,

or maybe you just think I'm not worth listening to.

God, I would just appreciate it if you'd think about it.

For a split second there, I thought you were gonna think.

But I was wrong.

You say that we're trying to change your mind.

We're not.

We just said those things so that you'd be careful,

so that you won't get hurt.

We'd have supported any decisions you make, but with our words in your head.

sigh...

Honestly, I don't wanna care.

Don't ask me to care.
Do whatever shit you wanna do.

Hate me for all I care.

I just miss the old you.

and also the old me.

xoxo

boom gone

#np: Love Will Remember ~ Selena Gomez

Hey babe it’s me. I just wanted to call to tell you that I love you so so so so much.

Just wanted to let you know that you are my princess,

you are worthy of all of the love in the world,

you are the love of my life.

Found out some amazing facts from Dom Dom today.

OH MY GOD.

I could have never guessed it was like that.

I'm obviously like wow, flattered.

Never thought it would be that way.

I feel kinda happy about it heh

WOOHOO.

I don't know what now omg.

Really weird week and I don't want to talk about it.

People being so weird and bizarre.

Even the teachers.

xoxo

I'm still thinking about you :)

#np: Awake All Night ~ Cody Simpson

Instead of counting sheeps,

I'll count the stars within your eyes.

This is actually a pointless post hahaha

Has anyone noticed how hot Cody Simpson is omg

WHEN HE'S SHIRTLESS IN THE AWAKE ALL NIGHT VID ADKJAJSHAKJS

and I still can't get over Justin Timberlake's Mirrors vid

That  thing he did with the mirrors is awesome

yay

And idk whether Jelena is back

but im trying not to care bcz:

It's all about the music.

Okay my life has reached to a point where it's trying to find itself again.

Something happened that I didn't expect,

and things haven't changed a lot.

A new part of me has been discovered and I can deal with it :)

It's taking time definitely but I'm going through it slowly.

She's not pushing me either which is good.

I love her for that <3

On the other hand,

Apparently, they all have moved on, but me.

I have not. And it kinda suck because I have to see all that,

and try not to be bothered about it.

LALALALALALALALA

anywhooooo,

it seems like uhm my average marks might be higher this time O.O

Not that I'm complaining hehe WOOHOO

aight. pce.

xoxo

-twerk-

Got appointed as the Editor of KCN yesterday and still can't believe it happened.

I'm pretty much the mom of KCN.

I hope I'm the fun and responsible mom though.

AND BRIMCHI are the co-editors.

good lord.

i hate human beings.

Look dude, I never did anything wrong to you.

Why are you trying to mess up my life?

My life is already kinda messed up without you in it.

I'm glad it's going to be over tomorrow.

STFU & GTFO.

I'm getting better.

I'm glad I am.

I don't remember the last time I felt any better.

Thank you,

for being in my life :)

xoxo

smile :)

You know, I have this habit, I don't really know where it came from, but I do this every morning when I get out of the house for school.
The sun hasn't come out and said hi to me.
But I look up at the skies and look for stars.
And 98% of the time, the stars are there.
I would smile instantly if I see the sky full of stars.
This is not a lie ahahaha, if any of you are wondering.

Do you ever wake up, and not think of what's going on in your life right now?
But instead you think of what can be and will be.
Like you believe in your dreams and think of things happening far away from you, like in the US.
Little things that the old you will do, and remember the things that happened years ago.
But once you have to start school or work, you snap back to your old routine and you probably won't do that in another few months or years.

It's important to not just be stuck in the present. Think of what the future may behold.
Don't be afraid of it. And don't be afraid of the present either.
Many people are too caught up in the future and too scared to stay in where they are that they forget.
Forget what's important.
Like for some people, they breathe work. They just drive by the relationship stages, with their family, friends, even PETS. and they end up forever alone. not with cats though. with paperwork.
Married to stress (I know one who has stress as his girlfriend)

Okay maybe right now at our stage of life, it's not possible because we're just dying to finish high school and get the shit over with (me too, trust me haha)
But take like maybe 2 seconds out of your day, stop and look around. Smell the roses.
Sometimes the little things can make you smile more than the success you have after working hard.

Aight okay. That's it for tonight. hahaha goodnight and sweet dreams :)
xoxo