lalalalala~

Haven't really updated this thing in awhile.

Had no mood to.

Currently have none too.

But since I'm bored as hell,

I might as well :)

SPM is over (like DUH!)

I went to Broga for Prefectorial Camp

and I just dyed my hair.

Am currently looking for a college, a job and a boyfriend (just kidding)

During my camp at Broga,

there was this cute British instructor who could breathe fire.

WHOA RIGHT?

he's cute but.... YEAH.

nothing really.

I'm gonna be single pringle for the rest of my life,

with a bunch of cats running around my house.

Kinda hate it when people lie.

When people move on from you like it's nothing.

What hurts most is when,

the one you still love,

speaks of her,

the way he spoke of you.

xoxo

You're all that matters to me :)

#np: All That Matters ~ Justin Bieber

there ain't no I in team, you make me complete,

you're all that matters to me.

Is it really the end of my high school?

IS IT?

whoa.

I still remember the first day of school...

I was the awkward shy one, sitting there by myself, waiting for someone to talk to me.

5 friggin years later,

THIS IS ME:

IM SEXY, HUH?

okay okay fineeeeee. party poopers.

this is me:

The last day of school involved a lot of hugging, picture taking, crying, crying and more crying.

It was like God was saying:

LET THE WATERWORKS BEGIN!

I cried too. HEH.

I'm an emotional person, don't judge me. I'm still more awesome than you.

I was surprised with a bouquet of flowers of some random Korean food

(you're not random, i love you teehee)

And just spent the whole day with my friends.

ya know, just chilling. time really flies.

Leaving KC is bittersweet.

I'm no good at goodbyes,

because saying goodbye means that you might never see that person again.

And I wanna see these people again.

thanks for making me the luckiest person in the world :)

xoxo

nothing lasts forever.

#np: Wherever You Are ~ 5SOS

For a while we pretended 

That we never had to end it 

But we knew we had to say goodbye.

We finished our trials today yay. And took some buddies out for good food :) and had Bryan begging on his knees for me ;) AHAHHA NO. he was begging me (well us) not to go without him. awwwwh. And after everyone left, except for me and Nini, I FANGIRLED WITH HER wheeee. Then, I forgot to bring my house keys and had to walk to my mom's office from my house to wait for her to go home with me.

Two months to go. Two months. Time sure flies. I don't even know what am I gonna do after KC. Everything is changing and I can't stop it. I'm growing up.

I don't like growing up.

tell him that I love him ♥

#np Little Things ~ One Direction

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth,

But if I do, it's you oh it's you they add up to,

I'm in love with you,

and all these little things.

OMG OMG I went to watch This Is Us.

TWICE.

and the second time was as good as the first time.

ERMAHGERD.

I went with Hannah the second time.

There were a lot of carrots there though ugh. LIKE STOP.

stop pretending that you love them when you only know their names (SOME DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO PRONOUNCE LOUIS LIKE SERIOUSLY)

stop with the fangirling.

they're ours. NOT YOURS. GO AWAY CARROTS.

I'm so proud of my boys, I swear.

They're the best thing that ever happened to me.

Their new album: Midnight Memories is coming out in December.

Justin's new album is coming out IDK WHEN. SOON.

Believe 3D is coming out in NOVEMBER.

I'M BROKE NIGGA BROKE.

anyways, I visited the principal's office last week.

I have nothing to say.

Just that thank god I'm not gonna stay in the school for another year.

Because I am

Things have been so bumpy lately.

But I am not gonna let them get me down.

BECAUSE I AM MY OWN HERO. and I'm fabulous.

I have like Christmas plans and New Year's plan.

Growin up is definitely scary,

I'm scared of what might happen once I'm out of school.

things will never be the same.

I'll be out of my comfort zone,

even when the comfort zone is horrible.

But how do you grow up without some challenges and changes?

So I'm excited :)

I'm gonna miss some people though.

xoxo

idek hah

#np Something that We're Not ~ Demi Lovato

I can't go through this again,

Stop trying to get inside my head.

omg Selamat Hari Raya, peeps!

honestly, this raya was kinda slow,

and it was boring.

My cousins all weren't at my grandpa's house.

So I was alone,

with no one to bully.

And I ONLY GOT LIKE RM 10 -cries-

活到老，学到老。

this quote means a lot.

You're constantly learning.

Learning about the world, about other people,

and most importantly about yourself.

I discovered things about myself,

during a skype call with Gen.

And also a phone call with Ali.

I'm gonna miss Ali, seriously.

Can you not go,

or can you take me with you.

im gonna die without you :(

xoxo

idk omg

I immediately said:

"I'm gonna regret this."

Once I posted the previous post.

But,

SUDDENLY, -dun dun dun-

"I did."

^ that's me bcz i'm fabulous

the gunman:

HE'S SCARED OF ME MUAHAHAHHA. OKAY BYE.

xoxo

weird post

Well, thank you for saying that I'm cute and that you love me.

And that you like my blog post.

I didn't expect her to show you, to be honest haha.

And I think she's a bit annoyed that I love you.

She glared at me ahaha.

So much love. I'm thinking you're creeped out by me now.

Most people do because I'm like this, once you get to know me:

the awkward girl from the Friday music video

or

as fresh as the fresh prince of bel air

There's no in between haha

and yes you can call me Rain :)

^ one of my babies heh i love him

the point of me making this is because

she's annoyed that she's the postman oops.

So yeah.

But I bet she'll be like DAHELL to me because I made this.

To her:

Sorry, babe. YOU MADE ME DO THIS.

but i know you love me.

You always do.

okayyy have an awesome day and continue being yourself, Dan :D

TRUE DAT ^

xoxo

#kcwo performance night

OMGGGGGG

hahahah

I don't know what am I ohmygod-ing about.

I wore my newly bought heels (they're pretty and I'll post a pic up next time)

and my while polka dots blue dress :D

Met up with Lil Kimchi at the school bus stop.

And met her dad.

Her dad is like so chill and Idk.

I LOVE YOU UNCLE.

Me and her went to print pictures and went to Italiannies.

ERMAHGERD.

THE PRICE ALMOST GAVE ME A HEART ATTACK.

It was actually kinda hard finding a place to eat at that time.

So Italiannies it is.

After eating, and creeping other people out,

and me falling in love with someone I've never met

(ps: DAN I LOVE YOU. AND YOUR CHARMING SELF)

We went to buy flowers,

for DomDom and MinXian.

I'm the nanny apparently haha

and we rushed to da school.

DomDom was waiting for us for a looooooong time,

I IZ SORRY.

And the performance started.

They were good.

During intermission,

went on a hunt to see my other friends.

EMILY CHEN WAS THERE.

She said she was proud of me hehe.

Thank you, my daughter.

And I met my prefect friends.

Love you people. Kisses.

And I left at 9.30 pm.

Nice night,

with me being taller than almost every one else hahah

and just....

being out and free :)

xoxo

I'll never be that girl again ♥

#np Miss Movin On ~ Fifth Harmony

I broke the glass surrounding me
I ain't the way you remember me
I was such a good girl
So fragile but no more

I think I'm finally moving on.

The weight on my shoulder is like gone.

I realize that letting go of some things would do you good.

You wouldn't have that naggy voice in your head,

reminding you of it every single day.

I'm like ughhh go away.

It helps when you're surrounded by people who cares.

And try to make things better,

than acting like nothing's happening.

You guys are like the rojak bunch.

Macam-macam pun ada.

The hugger/hostile cat, the sensitive douchebag, the stubborn korean food, etc.

Sure, we get on each other's throats like all the time.

But but. ASS. ahahah

Glad I met a bunch of people I can fight with haha :)

Was drowning in the lake,

but a few hands saved me,

when I actually didn't want to be saved.

Their faces were unfamiliar,

Their voices foreign,

but comforting.

I want to say they saved my life,

but instead,

they saved my soul.

I love you :)

:)

For a pessimist, I'm an optimist ♥

#np: For a pessimist, I'm an optimist ~ Paramore

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you
So much faith
And then you just threw it away
You threw it away

sup people.

so someone *ehem* kinda commented on how I'm expressing myself on facebook.

Which made me "lose my image".

So I deactivated my Facebook account,

I don't know for how long,

but yeah.

the only way you can find me is through the phone or Twitter.

For the time being.

I'm just angry.

Don't pretend that everything's fine,

and that once you smile at me,

once you check up on me,

I won't be angry anymore.

I don't want to be nice.

Judge me.

Call me a b****.

All the times,

that I've said that I don't wanna be nice anymore.

This time,

I mean it.

xoxo

You're gone.

#np: Slipped Away ~ Avril Lavigne

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Sometimes, you're just too sad to cry,

too sad to function.

You just smile to say "I'm fine".

The whole day you'll be smiling,

but once you're alone,

things that you've been avoiding in your head,

come and haunt you.

the things I do for the people I care about,

it brings absolutely no benefit to me.

Well, maybe I'm hoping you won't walk away from me,

like many people do.

But I do it for you.

I don't know, maybe you're just like super stubborn,

or maybe you just think I'm not worth listening to.

God, I would just appreciate it if you'd think about it.

For a split second there, I thought you were gonna think.

But I was wrong.

You say that we're trying to change your mind.

We're not.

We just said those things so that you'd be careful,

so that you won't get hurt.

We'd have supported any decisions you make, but with our words in your head.

sigh...

Honestly, I don't wanna care.

Don't ask me to care.
Do whatever shit you wanna do.

Hate me for all I care.

I just miss the old you.

and also the old me.

xoxo

boom gone

#np: Love Will Remember ~ Selena Gomez

Hey babe it’s me. I just wanted to call to tell you that I love you so so so so much.

Just wanted to let you know that you are my princess,

you are worthy of all of the love in the world,

you are the love of my life.

Found out some amazing facts from Dom Dom today.

OH MY GOD.

I could have never guessed it was like that.

I'm obviously like wow, flattered.

Never thought it would be that way.

I feel kinda happy about it heh

WOOHOO.

I don't know what now omg.

Really weird week and I don't want to talk about it.

People being so weird and bizarre.

Even the teachers.

xoxo

I'm still thinking about you :)

#np: Awake All Night ~ Cody Simpson

Instead of counting sheeps,

I'll count the stars within your eyes.

This is actually a pointless post hahaha

Has anyone noticed how hot Cody Simpson is omg

WHEN HE'S SHIRTLESS IN THE AWAKE ALL NIGHT VID ADKJAJSHAKJS

and I still can't get over Justin Timberlake's Mirrors vid

That  thing he did with the mirrors is awesome

yay

And idk whether Jelena is back

but im trying not to care bcz:

It's all about the music.

Okay my life has reached to a point where it's trying to find itself again.

Something happened that I didn't expect,

and things haven't changed a lot.

A new part of me has been discovered and I can deal with it :)

It's taking time definitely but I'm going through it slowly.

She's not pushing me either which is good.

I love her for that <3

On the other hand,

Apparently, they all have moved on, but me.

I have not. And it kinda suck because I have to see all that,

and try not to be bothered about it.

LALALALALALALALA

anywhooooo,

it seems like uhm my average marks might be higher this time O.O

Not that I'm complaining hehe WOOHOO

aight. pce.

xoxo