you get used to being alone.

#np Alone - Justin Bieber

We were inseparable (inseparable)
Everything I had to do I did it next to you (next to you)
And the memories we made are so incredible
Then our love was interrupted by my schedule.

I horribly need a vacation.

And I need to really stop stopping by at KC.

LMAO sorry guys.

My mind's a bit messed up at the moment,

please come back later

-BEEP-

It's weird not seeing everyone I know every day.

It's good and bad.

Bad as in I miss them horribly.

Good as in I see a bigger picture like the world is bigger than I can see.

Some things are better left alone and untouched.

I've been reading Demi's book called:

Staying Strong 365 days

Like I had to order that book because it's not sold in Malaysia.

It's really inspiring and it's kinda changing my mind about my life.

People who are close to me knows what I'm going through.

And boy, did I have a big breakdown last week

(that nobody knows of)

LMAO. anyways,

I was reading one of the pages and it's written there:

"You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months overanalyzing a situation, trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened... or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move on." - Tupac

 I think I'm just gonna leave the pieces on the floor and move on,

from whatever I'm thinking, overanalyzing.

Because it's in the past.

And that it's important to surround yourself with people who lift you up,

not bring you down with comments that hurt you.

It's okay to cut people out of your life.

For your own sake. For your own happiness.

And that you should never count on other people to make you happy.

Find the happiness from inside of yourself.

So yeah. and the future of my studies at the moment is not yet determined.

well fudge.

I hate change. Like if you say it's like that, then it should be like that FOREVER for me.

So I don't think I have a commitment issue right there.

The moment something changes, I will go ballistic.

I'm not even kidding.

If you say you'd stay forever, you better.

or i will kill you in your sleep.

But if you decided that you don't need me anymore,

it's okay.

We're all human. we have our needs.

I'm okay with that too because I'm used to it.

SO YEAH. now im gonna cook some chicken meatballs.

bye.

xoxo