nothing lasts forever.

#np: Wherever You Are ~ 5SOS

For a while we pretended 

That we never had to end it 

But we knew we had to say goodbye.

We finished our trials today yay. And took some buddies out for good food :) and had Bryan begging on his knees for me ;) AHAHHA NO. he was begging me (well us) not to go without him. awwwwh. And after everyone left, except for me and Nini, I FANGIRLED WITH HER wheeee. Then, I forgot to bring my house keys and had to walk to my mom's office from my house to wait for her to go home with me.

Two months to go. Two months. Time sure flies. I don't even know what am I gonna do after KC. Everything is changing and I can't stop it. I'm growing up.

I don't like growing up.

tell him that I love him ♥

#np Little Things ~ One Direction

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth,

But if I do, it's you oh it's you they add up to,

I'm in love with you,

and all these little things.

OMG OMG I went to watch This Is Us.

TWICE.

and the second time was as good as the first time.

ERMAHGERD.

I went with Hannah the second time.

There were a lot of carrots there though ugh. LIKE STOP.

stop pretending that you love them when you only know their names (SOME DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO PRONOUNCE LOUIS LIKE SERIOUSLY)

stop with the fangirling.

they're ours. NOT YOURS. GO AWAY CARROTS.

I'm so proud of my boys, I swear.

They're the best thing that ever happened to me.

Their new album: Midnight Memories is coming out in December.

Justin's new album is coming out IDK WHEN. SOON.

Believe 3D is coming out in NOVEMBER.

I'M BROKE NIGGA BROKE.

anyways, I visited the principal's office last week.

I have nothing to say.

Just that thank god I'm not gonna stay in the school for another year.

Because I am

Things have been so bumpy lately.

But I am not gonna let them get me down.

BECAUSE I AM MY OWN HERO. and I'm fabulous.

I have like Christmas plans and New Year's plan.

Growin up is definitely scary,

I'm scared of what might happen once I'm out of school.

things will never be the same.

I'll be out of my comfort zone,

even when the comfort zone is horrible.

But how do you grow up without some challenges and changes?

So I'm excited :)

I'm gonna miss some people though.

xoxo

idek hah

#np Something that We're Not ~ Demi Lovato

I can't go through this again,

Stop trying to get inside my head.

omg Selamat Hari Raya, peeps!

honestly, this raya was kinda slow,

and it was boring.

My cousins all weren't at my grandpa's house.

So I was alone,

with no one to bully.

And I ONLY GOT LIKE RM 10 -cries-

活到老，学到老。

this quote means a lot.

You're constantly learning.

Learning about the world, about other people,

and most importantly about yourself.

I discovered things about myself,

during a skype call with Gen.

And also a phone call with Ali.

I'm gonna miss Ali, seriously.

Can you not go,

or can you take me with you.

im gonna die without you :(

xoxo

idk omg

I immediately said:

"I'm gonna regret this."

Once I posted the previous post.

But,

SUDDENLY, -dun dun dun-

"I did."

^ that's me bcz i'm fabulous

the gunman:

HE'S SCARED OF ME MUAHAHAHHA. OKAY BYE.

xoxo

weird post

Well, thank you for saying that I'm cute and that you love me.

And that you like my blog post.

I didn't expect her to show you, to be honest haha.

And I think she's a bit annoyed that I love you.

She glared at me ahaha.

So much love. I'm thinking you're creeped out by me now.

Most people do because I'm like this, once you get to know me:

the awkward girl from the Friday music video

or

as fresh as the fresh prince of bel air

There's no in between haha

and yes you can call me Rain :)

^ one of my babies heh i love him

the point of me making this is because

she's annoyed that she's the postman oops.

So yeah.

But I bet she'll be like DAHELL to me because I made this.

To her:

Sorry, babe. YOU MADE ME DO THIS.

but i know you love me.

You always do.

okayyy have an awesome day and continue being yourself, Dan :D

TRUE DAT ^

xoxo

#kcwo performance night

OMGGGGGG

hahahah

I don't know what am I ohmygod-ing about.

I wore my newly bought heels (they're pretty and I'll post a pic up next time)

and my while polka dots blue dress :D

Met up with Lil Kimchi at the school bus stop.

And met her dad.

Her dad is like so chill and Idk.

I LOVE YOU UNCLE.

Me and her went to print pictures and went to Italiannies.

ERMAHGERD.

THE PRICE ALMOST GAVE ME A HEART ATTACK.

It was actually kinda hard finding a place to eat at that time.

So Italiannies it is.

After eating, and creeping other people out,

and me falling in love with someone I've never met

(ps: DAN I LOVE YOU. AND YOUR CHARMING SELF)

We went to buy flowers,

for DomDom and MinXian.

I'm the nanny apparently haha

and we rushed to da school.

DomDom was waiting for us for a looooooong time,

I IZ SORRY.

And the performance started.

They were good.

During intermission,

went on a hunt to see my other friends.

EMILY CHEN WAS THERE.

She said she was proud of me hehe.

Thank you, my daughter.

And I met my prefect friends.

Love you people. Kisses.

And I left at 9.30 pm.

Nice night,

with me being taller than almost every one else hahah

and just....

being out and free :)

xoxo

I'll never be that girl again ♥

#np Miss Movin On ~ Fifth Harmony

I broke the glass surrounding me
I ain't the way you remember me
I was such a good girl
So fragile but no more

I think I'm finally moving on.

The weight on my shoulder is like gone.

I realize that letting go of some things would do you good.

You wouldn't have that naggy voice in your head,

reminding you of it every single day.

I'm like ughhh go away.

It helps when you're surrounded by people who cares.

And try to make things better,

than acting like nothing's happening.

You guys are like the rojak bunch.

Macam-macam pun ada.

The hugger/hostile cat, the sensitive douchebag, the stubborn korean food, etc.

Sure, we get on each other's throats like all the time.

But but. ASS. ahahah

Glad I met a bunch of people I can fight with haha :)

Was drowning in the lake,

but a few hands saved me,

when I actually didn't want to be saved.

Their faces were unfamiliar,

Their voices foreign,

but comforting.

I want to say they saved my life,

but instead,

they saved my soul.

I love you :)